The Past Stays Here

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  • Air of Possibilities

    How do we do next
    Dating replaced

    Foodie aside

    a skate
    at the rink
    a hike in the woods
    was the extent of our taste;

    an app
    a cocktail a meal
    til the conversation ran dry

    How do we do next
    dating replaced

    Hold my hand 
    head high
    fill self interest
    ofc

    poetry, curling, bowling 
    yes of all things curling
    movies and rock bands
    the woods
    back to my tree hugging ways

    how do we do next
    dating replaced

    the spring sheds the cocoon
    the butterfly emerges
    the snow melts on the ground
    wings spread
    I fly
    primary colors 
    full force ahead.

  • “You’re too pretty to be home on a Saturday night”

    (literally says mom-)

    English line dancing
    Is anybody in?
    It’s a Saturday at 7
    home couch cuddling 
    with myself 

    mom calls 
    the party just begins
    she’s headed out
    her heals on
    date night card games
    with friends

    but mom 
    it’s heavenly
    the knit blanket
     the quiet
    the ginger lemon tea
    Bridgerton on the screen

    ask the therapist
    is this normal
    she has my birthday
    August Virgo baby
    calm earthy grounded 

    where are those men you’ve been interested in
    they are laying low
    paperwork and Landman
    ready for the next day to begin

  • Hearts Shatter

    Hearts Shatter

    I text and text and text again
    Another message
    Press contact photo 
    hit call
    forwarded to voice mail
    grasping air

    .

    repeat 

    clarity or closure
    or something that resembles either
    a follow up from the 
    need isn’t how much time spent
    “moms on the other line” 
    click

    .

    need is how time is spent
    empathy respect
    hear the dream
    see the vision
    use the damn yoga mat

    .

    in a relationship
    what do those needs mean 
    a google search …
    listening  
    a chance to express
    feelings and opinions

    not met
    a call back
    you do care…
    only voices rise
    fault and blame 
    feel like despise

    hearts shatter

  • Pump Tears

    At the gym
    Extensional crisis

    Pump iron
    Release serotonin 

    Tears stream
    down my face
    I wipe
    in hopes
    no one notices

    who cares
    let it flow
    the pain the tension the 
    lift the claves
    row pull lat scap 

    tear 
    smudge
    continue
    breath breath  
    let it all go

  • Cold Moon

    The Thaw

    Seat belt
    buckle up
    i didn’t know it would be a bumpy ride

    Lap the air
    overcast
    smell of those tall pines

    chocolate melatonin
    head wrap 
     children screach
    grab the barf bag
    rest the eyes

    laughing laughing laughing
    mongolian buffet
    red wine
    naps 
    mid day snacks
    relax
    red eye back